Gelatin. Marshmallow.

I have a lot of kwento but I'm really lazy to write. :|

My eyes are really sleepy now but there are still a LOT of JPIA stuff to do….

My midterms are………………………………………..

This is nonsense. I'm going to blog later. :D

Ciao!

Happy 21st! :)

Thank you LORD
for another year to love
and to be loved.
:)

*HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEAN, KUYA CALOY AND TITO NARCING!*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO US!!! :D

Jeep

I don't like walking to school. I hate the feeling of the sweat flowing at my back. I don't like the feeling of stickiness after walking. I want to be fresh whenever I go to school. So, I prefer to ride the bus (which will take me about 30 minutes from Lawton to San Beda) instead of the jeep (which will only take me 10 minutes).

I could still remember the time when I excluded myself from my friends and find some time alone at St. Jude. I was looking for an Adoration Chapel near San Beda since last February 2008. I asked. But it seems that churches near my school don't have one (or it's just the people's innocence that they didn't know that there's an existing Adoration Chapel in the church). Anyway, I end praying and crying inside St. Jude on that fateful day. As much I wanted to have a solemn personal time with God as I cried my heart out during that time, I ended up finding silence in my heart.

It was a busy Monday for me. It's not the usual "petiks mode" during Sundays. It was "cramming mode". I have lots of things to study in TAX that I don't even know where to focus. I enjoyed solving problems though, but I hate the feeling of not knowing if I have studied enough or not. I stole an hour of sleep in during my morning and afternoon review. Then had a 2-hour sleep (from 11:30 to 1:30) this morning. I didn't sleep much. I am used to that even during high school. But unlike the feeling in high school in which you are confident to answer an exam because you know you've studied well, my morning review sessions now in college doesn't give me the feeling of security and confidence that I can hurdle the exam.

My Catholic Faith something that I've been cherishing for years. I am blessed to know God since I was born. I am blessed to grow up in a family that taught me who God is. And I am grateful for this Faith. If not for this, I wouldn't have been optimistic about things. If not for this, I would have taken my life a long time ago. If not for this, I wouldn't look forward for hope.

After a year and a half of looking for an Adoration Chapel near my school, I finally found one. It will now be my safe heaven. The place that I will always visit from now on. The reason that I am now looking forward to ride a jeep instead of a bus. Walking will not be an issue anymore. I already found my motivation.

God affirmed to me again today that He'll never leave and I should not be afraid. I am scared. But I am holding on to my faith and to His promise.

Thank you Lord for this faith. :)

 

"The LORD Himself goes before you and will be with you;

He will never leave you nor forsake you.

Do not be afraid; Do not be discouraged."

-Deuteronomy 31:8-

My top 10 non-material birthday wishes…

Why non-material? Material gifts can be easily bought by MONEY!!! If only I have money, I could buy anything I want. Money can be easily earned (ok fine. not really.), but money is something generic. And things that can be bought by money are generic! So I have this 10 non-material birthday wishlist.

1. Pass all my subjects this semester.
   
2. Graduate on April 8/9, 2010. :D
   
3. Pass the CPA Board Exam on October 2010. :)
   
4. Not to be hurt too much when … (though shall not be posted publicly. :p)
   
5. Be happy and feel contented and blessed in everything. :)
   
6. That Papa, Ate Kay and Jem will always be happy.
   
7. For my friends (especially Loren) to pass the CPA Board Exam.
   
8. Spend time with friends!!!
   
9. Have a vacation with my family. :)
   
10. No more FAMILY FEUD…
    

I know that some are too idealistic. But those are my birthday wishes (no objections please. :D).

(no room for love. I think I'm not ready to fall for someone new. He's still there. But don't get me wrong. I'm happy and contented that we're friends and nothing more than that.)

Tic tac tic tac tic tac tic tac tic tac.

25 hours 'til my 21st. :)

As Promised. :)

Time started: 11:30pm

I put the time so that I could really tell you that I blogged as promised. But since that dsl is having its usual tantrums again, and I just got home, I don't think I can finish this blog before 12:00 midnight. But at least, I started it tonight which is still a part of the "tomorrow" that I said yesterday. :)

There's so much to tell. So much to write so that when I can remember no more, I can browse on this page and remember how my life has been.

Monday

Monday is ok. We had a quiz in MAS about cash flow (ang walang kamatayang cash flow). I got 6/11=54%. Sir Quijano got mad at us because we weren't able to study the IRR of the Accountancy Law. And Tax was a relief for the first time. :) Atty. D just discussed things that we don't know (then we realized that there are A LOT of things in TAX that we don't know.).

 

Tuesday

I didn't come to school early that day. I came an hour before our audit class and still haven't read anything in audit. I borrowed Joey's copy of the IRR when I saw him outside the lib, wrote in the sorry card for sir quijano then went to class. We had a little surprise for sir Quijano to make amends to our misbehavior last Monday.

If we gave Sir Quijano a surprise, Atty. D gave us a surprise- quiz. I only got 36%! I'm not really good in law and my hopes for that subject are slowly declining as days pass. But I want to be optimistic. I can still do something and I'm holding on to that.

I went home with Grax, Rjadz and Erika. We did our FSA and a lot of eating. :D It was a very productive overnight. At least we were able to finish 80% of our paper.

 

Wednesday

We slept at 7am then I woke up at 10am to work for our paper again. It was a long night for us and we were all stressed and tired. Thank God for Pres. Cory that it was a declared holiday or else we will be in school. We finished doing our fsa at 5pm. We left home at 6:30pm.

I was planning to practice for the Feast Manila but since we weren't able to finish our paper early, I just end up practicing for the Music Min. I was really shy. I was blessed to have Katty around. Kuya alfie was really nice to me (as well as the others though they don't really talk to me). Being part of music ministry was my dream ever since the Feast started. Singing is one of my greatest passion that even though I know that I'm not the best singer that this world could offer, my heart for singing can compensate for my voice. I just observed their practice then was asked to sing after. I was not prepared! I don't even know what song I should sing. I was so nervous when kuya ji started to play. I sang "I offer my life" with a nervous and cracky voice. Then it came to me once again that I can't sing alone comfortably in front of people that will hear me for the first time.

 

Thursday

I didn't come to school early again. I was almost late for MAS. It was a lazy Thursday for me. Nothing much to tell.

 

Friday

We had an exam in MAS. Then discussed annex a, b & c of the IRR. We just had a discussion in sales. Then I happily went to the MANILA FEAST. :)

I learned something that day: a woman's instinct is really one of a kind, it may not be completely true but more or less, the idea that something different is happening is there.

 

Saturday

God truly blesses me. Sir Uro was really nice to allow us to take the exam anytime within our period. I took our supposed to be 11am exam at 1pm. :)

I wasn't able to study for accrev but thank God that he made Sir Tony lazy again today that he wasn't able to prepare a quiz today and just chose to discuss CASH FLOW!

It was a tiring day.
Rjadz, Erika and I (with grax again) went to Rjadz's dorm to finish our FSA. We weren't able to finish everything but at least we were almost done. Almost. :)

 

I have a lot of plans for today (SUNDAY). I just hope that I could execute them well. I am good in planning. But never in implementing. I just need to change now. I can. (crossed fingers)

Blessing will be pouring. God is good!

 

Time ended: 12:07am

Should I?

FACEBOOK is God's way of saying, "KEREN, you should really move forward now. You already got what you've been asking for."

I'm a hypocrite if I'll say that I'm not hurting. I am, but not that much.

I'm ok. I just sometimes hate my instincts. Lol.

=)

I have a lot more stories to tell. I'll blog tomorrow. Promise. :D

LATE POST!!! July 23, 2009 is a HAPPY day

LATE POST! I found this file while cleaning up my desktop. I think I fell asleep while I was writing this blog then opt to save it first before publishing it. But then, I forgot to publish and even finish it. :P

 

I should have been sad after the surprise quiz in tax. 97% of the class got 0 (including me) in the quiz. But instead of being sad about it, I was more excited to finish the class because of this text message: "mam, ditto nap o laptop u pede nyo na kuha bukas". Don't mind the sentence construction, just mind its meaning. Finally, after more than two weeks of not having AK, she's now back in my arms and functioning pretty well. Two weeks was worth the wait I guess. I was really overjoyed to have AK back. I miss doing this, lying down while typing my blog.

AK got three scratches. She got two near the touch pad and one on the cover. I overreacted when I saw the scratches. But what should I do, AK got hurt and I can't do anything to remove the scratches. They are a part of AK now. AK with scratches. =( But if those scratches were the reason why AK's touchpad is functioning well now, then so be it. I am looking forward for AK's sleeves soon from Ate Kay. It will be her birthday gift for me. :D

Happiness today isn't all about AK. There's a lot more. But AK is a big part of it and she's the main reason for this evening's happiness. :D

There are a lot more things to be happy about. My July 23, 2009 started at 12:00am with me, reading the lecture materials in MAS. I thought it would be difficult to understand and it will take me an hour to finish reading the lecture. But lo and behold, it only took me 20minutes to finish reading Garrison's cash flow lecture with much understanding. :) after MAS, I studied fringe benefit in tax and that was the first time ever that I felt that I understood the lesson in tax in one seating.

End

I think that there are a lot more stories I want to share last July 23 but then, I fell asleep. Sleep is good! I need more of it. :D

    

Lazy Sunday

My Sunday started outside the house. Grax and I came home late last night from Cubao. Rjadz, Erika and I were planning to do our MAS paper. But we just end up dividing the work. It was kinda productive though.

I just got home from mass with Ate Kay and Pre. It's my first time again to hear mass on a Sunday evening. I usually hear mass on Saturdays or Sunday mornings, but today was different because today is a lazy Sunday.

I haven't done anything for school today. But I was glad to have short chats with friends and family. It was quite a while. It was nice hearing stories from people I haven't seen for months now. Thank God for technology! :D

Because I slept at 4am, I woke up at around 10 then slept again then woke up at around 5. Then I watched Kris Aquino's exclusive interview at the buzz. I cried with her. I feel for her. Her story reminded me of what happened last year when Mama was suffering from cancer. I know how it feels to lose a mom, and I know how it feels to take care of someone with cancer. She's right, it's better to be away from a loved than to be with her then see her suffer. I admire Pres. Aquino's strength as well as her family for facing this trial with faith.

Because of our hangover from watching The Buzz, Ate and I reminisced the fateful April 1, 2008. It still pains me to remember the day when I lose Mama. But despite the pain, I know that wherever she is, she is happy. And she's still with us, guiding and protecting us every single day.

I started thinking about my planned funeral again. I know I'm different. Girls like me would usually plan their wedding day, but I don't have plans for my wedding day, I only have plans for my funeral. My classmates in high school know about those plans and even my family does. I am looking forward for that day, seeing in everyone in blue or white, hearing my requested funeral songs sung by my friends. It will be a celebration, not mourning. By that time, I know that I have lived my life to the fullest and hopefully accomplished God's mission for me. :D

I should start doing something productive now. Live to love! :D

The great love

He is the one great love that I almost had but will never have. No regrets. I'm happy to be his friend, and nothing more than that even in the future. We'll just be friends all our lives. Cheers to friendship! :)

 

"When magic ends, friendship begins…"

Chocolate ice cream cake + paotsin = csb mission

Playing on the background: Set You Free (MYMP)

CSB mission is back! And I haven't done anything productive yet today for school. There's a quiz in MAS tomorrow (hopefully, there'll be none. Waaah.), a recit in LAW about capital gains and an activity in AUDIT theory about code of ethics. I don't know where to start. I just want to sleep. :( tsk tsk.

I didn't attend the dance min practice today. As much as I wanted to, I chose not. PAASCU visit will start tomorrow and I don't have time to study tomorrow morning that's why I just chose to stay home today and study. I just hope that I could really study for tomorrow.

I still don't have a globe number. :( I think I'm out of the circulation. Tsk tsk. But hopefully, I'll have a globe number by tomorrow because grax is very generous in lending her phone to me. Yey. Thanks grax! I just need to buy a sim card. :D

I was with him today. But things are just casual, and I'm glad that they are. At least I'm ok. I know I am. I still like him though. Things will be fine. I still haven't told jem about that. But I'm glad that I was able to tell Ate this morning.

Two weeks 'til I turn 21. As much as I want to think about my birthday, I am thinking more about the upcoming midterms 1 ½ weeks from now. I just wish that God will continue to bless me (I know He will). :)