It is neither jealousy nor bitterness. It’s just about feeling bad for yourself because you feel so little and not enough because he did not have the courage to stand for you and take the risk while he leaped for the other.
You’re hurting not because of “them” but because of the way you think towards yourself. You don’t have regrets with your decisions because you know that you did what’s best for you. It’s just that you’re hurting and only you could understand; only you could explain.
I feel for you.
