Surprise!

Dear Keren, Fantasy is important. Some people are allergic to fantasy. But your reality today was once upon a time someone’s fantasy. The computer that you use today was a fantasy in someone’s mind 30 years ago. Praying for something gives you a picture of where you want to go. Praying moves you from your present to your future. 
Pray,God
P.S. Move big mountains in your mind, Keren. Reality will follow.

Maybe the things that will happen in a few months time was just my fantasy that I never really expected to happen this fast. But going back to my logic, IF GOD DOESN'T WANT THIS, THEN THIS SHOULD NOT HAPPEN. BUT BECAUSE HE ALLOWED THIS TO HAPPEN, THEN SO BE IT, THIS IS FOR ME. Oh yes, this is for me. I am a bit weary and scared but I know that with all my batchmates beside me, we can get through this. And maybe, we'll see Singapore, Hongkong or Australia soon. :) So this is it, goodbye AFJ, hello ATH. :)


Just let Your will be done Lord. :) 

The Repeat

Lately, I find myself questioning the very things that define me. I am getting tired and drained (physically, emotionally and spiritually). I tried to runaway (as always) and just vanish in the thin air.

But He doesn't want me to go elsewhere. He dragged me there today to remind me that what I do never failed to make Him happy. I may feel burdened but He'll always be with me. Besides, service is more than bringing back all the glory to God. It is denying ourselves, giving our own little sacrifices and allowing others to experience God through us. :D

What will Mama do?

Mama will explain to you both sides and let you see the positive.
Mama will tell you to move forward and slowly accept everything.
Mama will insist that you must exercise patience and allow God to be in control.
Mama will remind you that in all things, God will ALWAYS work for good, and He’ll never ever fail you.
Mama will gather all her courage, lovingly confront the person, patiently listen to explanations and understand without question.


Things were not easy for me too. But Mama taught me well. She may not be here, but her teachings and her love will always be living, here, inside me. I know I’ve already done my part. I stepped out from my comfort zone and do things I’m don’t used to do. It was a big step for me, but this made me realize that there’s nothing pure and genuine love could not do.


And yes, I still have a firm faith that someday, everything will fall into its perfect place and work according to God’s perfect plan.<3

Reality Bites.

When you begin to find yourself again in the unsheltered world, you'll come to realize how far blessed you are from others. You're torn between choosing to play it all safe or carry your courageous heart to survive.

I've been living in a world surrounded with so much love. I've been blessed to be a part of a community who never failed to remind me that amidst that imperfect world, there'll always be a perfect love that will save us all. But it bothers me more to know that beyond those borders where I chose to live, is a cruel world that is in desperate need of more love.

Reality bites, and sometimes, it even eats you alive. It hurts so much that it may make you think if the world you're trying to live in is a reality or just part of your imagination. It makes you question if your experiences are real or is it just part of the "good world" that you're trying to picture.

You stopped, looked around, breathed deep, closed your eyes. And then you saw that everything around you is not a dream. You are witnessing one world with two faces. One world yet with division. One world with different principles and beliefs. One world separated by sin and hate. One world torn between good and bad. One world moving in two different opposite directions. But amidst these differences, one thing remains the same, this one world needs LOVE.

The greatest challenge now is how to fully, wholly and genuinely love to remove the barricades that separates that one world; how to make the two realities into one; and most of all, how to remove bias and make sure that every decision is fair and just for everyone.

I am 22 years in the community, yet I haven't fully lived what perfect love is all about. But someday I will,and when that time comes, that one world will be united with the one perfect love.

Oh yes, reality bit me. And it won't stop biting me everyday if I don't do anything. Someday, this world will be a better place for me, for the people I love and for those I will still love. May God be with me. :)

I'm Not.

I'm not you.
I'll never be you.
I don't want to be you.
I am who I am.
And there's nothing you can do to make me change.

I'm not me.
For now, I guess, maybe.
Deadlines mix up.
Obligations pile up.
And I'm trying my best not to feel stressed.

I'm not ok.
Right now.
And I hate that I am.
Where's the little optimistic girl?
Is she already gone?

I'm not telling.
I'm done with my piece.
You can die in peace.

Just for today.

I hate.

I'm NOT!!!

Sick Leave

If you've earned 6, why just use 2? Besides, it can no longer be monetized. :)

i am sick today. And I am not going to work. But I am still paid. :)

Email Update Trial

I am exploring the possibilities of my E5 and I am hoping to learn that everything I think of doing could be possible. :)

The Beauty of Sisterhood

I've lost my mother 3 years ago, and I hope I won't lose my father soon (because with the rate things are going now...)

I may have cursed them a number of times. I may have wished that I was the only child years back. I may have several petty fights with them over material things. I may have shouted back. I may have taken them for granted. But this day reminded me that no matter how life rejects us and all the people around us leave us, we'll still have each other, forever.

I will always be grateful to have them. <3

Blue Bead.

When it comes to love, nothing else matters. Even a human can fall in love with a fox and make heavens go crazy.

 

Love. A profound word that has been used for years yet not everyone could perfectly grasp.

 

 

PS Koreanovelas never fail to make me cry. Mi-ho and Dae-woong! <3

Smile little one.

I know that behind that smile is a crying heart that wishes to be always understood. You are different. And you don't live to conform with what the world expects from you. You are unique in your own way. Things may not always go the way you planned them, but it's ok. Charge it to experience. Smile genuinely cause your smile could heal many (and also you).