old blog

i was into blogging before after all. (when i was broken hearted) lol. i found this post in my old friendster blog and i can't really remember why i posted this and who's ********:

isang madramang pag-uusap sa pagitan namin ni ********...

Wednesday, January 25th, 2006

********: i never thought of dreaming about you last night.. why do i feel this way? are you coming back tome now? (hindi para sa akin ‘yang line na ‘yan… sinulat lang niya kasi nagdradrama siya… syempre, nireplayan ko..)

raine: please don’t come back… i know that i’ll fall for you again… i don’t want to bear the pain of losing you again.. (reply ko sa kanya na para dun sa sinusulatan niya… medyo can relate… hahaha…)

********: sige na nga, baka hindi talaga tayong dalawa… alagaan mo siya… mahalin mo siya… paalam na..=c…huhuhu…wawa naman ako…(hindi pa rin para sa akin ‘yan… para kay, —–…hahaha)

raine: pero kung dumating ang panahong muling magtagpo ang landas natin, at kung sa pagkakataong ‘yon parehong malaya ang ating puso, ‘wag nating sayangi ang pagkakataon ‘pagkat ang langit na ang gumawang paraan upang tayo’y magkatuluyan…hahaha…

********: sabi natin sa isa’t-isa dati, ‘pag nagkaton na may ibang dumatin, okay lang kasi ‘pag nagkalayo tayo… sobrang panandalian lang un… pero paano na ngayon? (hindi pa rin para sa akin ‘yan… para kay —– pa rin…)

raine: akala ko dati hindi ‘to mangyayari, umasa sa mga pangakong binitawan sa isa’t-isa… pero ngayon alam ko na, mga pangako’y wala na … at ngayo’y umaasa na lang na may dumating ring iba… (pangdagdag niya ‘yan sa sinulat niya… pero can relate pa rin… hahaha…)

********: nalulungkot ako dahil may iba ka na.. nadurog ang puso kasi naalala ko na sabi natin magkaibigan pa rin tayo… kahit ano mangyari.. pero ni ha he hi ho hu wala akong narinig mula sa ‘yo… (para pa rin kay —– ‘yan…)

raine: kaya ngayon hindi alam kung ano ang masmasakit, ang pagkakaroon mo ng iba o ang hindi pagpapakita… kung anuman isa lang ang sigurado, nangungulila ang pusong ito sa ‘yo…

********: where are you to wipe my tears? nung mapanaginipan kita… ngayon ko lang naisip… wala ka na palang talga… =c

raine: sabi nila masmaganda ang realidad, ‘pagkat doon mong tunay na madarama… ngunit ngayo’y umaasa na panaginip na lang sana para sa aking pagising ang sakit ay wala na…

********: paano na ako ngayon… bakit ganun… hinahanap-hanap pa rin kita!!! turuan mo naman akong kalimutan ka… dahil alam kong malit ito… itong nadarama ko… =c

(para kay ********) raine: ayoko, na tapos na masyado nang madrama… hehehe…

(para kay ********) raine: masgusto mo talaga SIYA kahit di mo aminin… minahal mo siya kahit ayaw mo sabihin… at ngayon nasasaktan ka kasi pinakawalan mo pa siya… hahaha… peace…^_^

ayan… yan ang madrama naming pag-uusap ni ********.. secret identity kuno.. hahaha… ‘yung mga script niya, para kay —– ‘yun… dinadagdagan ko lang… na medyo can relate naman ako sa mga sinusulat ko.. obvious ba… ‘wag kayong mag-alala… sana ito na ang huli kong pagdradrama….

reading your old blogs will just make you laugh. lol.

plurk and life

Since i'm not checking my friendster and multiply account anymore, i was more into blogging and plurk right now. I've already created a private blog (if you want me to invite you, you may comment here and leave your eadd) and this blog. I don't know what got into me but due to friendster shutdown last week, I already programmed myself not to check on my friendster account anymore.

I was reunited with friends in Plurk! I found a lot of real life friends on plurk and i'm really happy to see them and know how they're doing since I wasn't able to check them on friendster. I was also blessed with new friends on Plurk. Though I wasn't really able to meet them nor I don't know them personally, their hospitality on Plurk makes plurking more exciting.

I was already getting used to having boys around instead of girls. I just can't help to be lonely sometimes whenever I need to go to the restroom. I was really used to having Nanna around. I just remembered what happened a yesterday afternoon when my boyfriends went to the CR. I just can't help myself to tell them "sige, magcr kayong lahat, iwan niyo akong mag-isa". Helpless loner. (lol) How I really wish that I can still have even a single girlfriend to be with me during breaktime. But what can I do? Rjadzper is the best that I've got for this sem. (lol)

I just realized that I'm really ok. (read my other blog) Though I still don't know what will happen when the conversation will already be personal, but I think that having a casual talk was helpful. Well thanks to plurk. (lol)

I'll not go home tonight and I haven't asked permission yet. tsktsk. We'll, he's still not home, how could I ask? I'm not asking permission anyway, it's more of letting him know. It's "pa-alam" not "pa-a-lam". gets? (lol)

Before I end this blog, I just want to share my cousin Marius's blog. I really find it funny and sweet. He's our boarder here and he's really quiet. His blog created a new impression of him on me.

Ciao!

then He sent her..

I was praying hard yesterday that my angel would rescue me from imminent danger and irreparable injury. My head is not working since our quiz in advac started and it can’t absorb more information. Two more major subjects, four and a half hours more and deadly Thursday is on its way again in making our lives miserable.

I was called for the recitation in law. Though I was not spared from hearing “that will do” after a few questions, I thought that my recitation yesterday was A LOT BETTER than the first that I had. I admire my seatmate EMiLY for being able to recite very well last night. She stood for several minutes answering every question that Atty. D threw on her. I think it was the best recitation for this semester so far.

After the class in law, I was overjoyed. It’s not because that it’s my time to go home and I’m really tired from all the “Thursday stress” but because I was able to survive another deadly Thursday. I was able to recite in law and the question I got was easier than those of others. I was able to answer some of the numbers in our advac quiz (though I know that I wouldn’t be able to get a good grade again). I was able to comprehend a few more lectures in finma.

I was hoping that God will let me experience his divine intervention and get me out of that situation, but He didn’t. Instead, He sent me my angel to guide me throughout the day and lift me up when I’m feeling low. He didn’t rescue me. But He sent someone to be with me and to be my shock absorber for the whole day stress. And I believe that He sent the perfect angel for me. Thank you Papa God! Thank you Mama. (I miss you)

Three Thursdays down and more to go.