Trip lang

badtrip.bakit?ewan.kainis.ssssh.cellphone.laptop(blaze).

Para saan? Baka doon. Siguro nga. Baka hindi. Sigurado ka?

Weird. Strange. Odd. Peculiar. Different. Unusual. Extraordinary.

Keren Graine Mallari deactivated her Facebook account…

BAKIT????

Trip lang.

Pero trip nga lang ba?

O may mas malalim na dahilan?

Hush….

My BIG thank you… :)

I learned that in this life, not everything will work out as planned. My supposed to be 3 years and 2 terms in college became 5 years. I left my dream school and went to a new one that I never knew existed until I actually set foot on its grounds. It was heartbreaking at first, but when I realized His reasons, I became submissive to His plans. I'm glad that I took the longer road, because if not, I will not be blessed to meet new people whom I will build lifelong friendships. And with this, I want to thank everyone who took part in my 5-year journey…

 

To Daddy and Tita Yeng, thank you for introducing me to this field and for not allowing me to give up on this dream when I was about to give it up. Thank you for your constant reminders and tutoring.

 

To Uncle Jun, thank you for all the financial and moral support you gave me throughout my college. I owe you big time. I promise not to put to waste everything that you've invested on me and to always pay it forward.

 

To my C33 blockmates and fellow LAmb 2k6, thank you for a very memorable first year college in La Salle. Thank you for your unending friendship even if I'm already a Bedan. I miss you.

 

To XJs (Bf, Grax, Nanna, Te Nel, Kat, Kris, Ern), you're the most beautiful barkada San Beda could offer. The universe conspired for us to meet and become the best of friends. Our sisterhood will be for keeps. Thank you for helping me accept my fate and for being there for me all throughout especially during the most trying times.

 

To my "boy friends" (Rjadz, Ketts, Pio, Rabena, Ada), thank you for being a friend when I felt that I was alone and had no friends left to be with me every single day. You never failed to make me feel secured when I'm with you.

 

To my dearest batchmates, thank you for letting me feel a little heaven in every deadly school day. Learning is fun because you're around. I will surely miss our classroom parties. :D Let's make history and aim for 100%. :)

 

To the A.Y. 07-08 and A.Y. 08-09 JPIA officers, thank you for your friendship , for helping me develop my leadership skills and for entrusting JPIA to me.

 

To Atty. Llave and my beloved 09-10 JPIA officers, thank you for your respect and trust. You're the best batch of officers that I've ever worked with. I couldn't ask for more. It was my pleasure working with you. We did it! Congratulations for a job well done! :)

 

To our Professors, thank you for patience and unselfishness. I may not remember all the accounting theories and concepts that you taught us but I will always keep in mind all the life's lessons you imparted to us. Thank you for helping us prepare for the real world that awaits us.

 

To my LOJ-Youth Family, thank you for always believing in my capabilities, for praying for me and for giving me the opportunity to serve in the midst of my toxic academic life.

 

To my ever supportive Cañete and Mallari family, thank you for your overflowing love and support for me and for making me feel that I made you proud.

 

To my most cherished gems, Papa, Ate Kay and Jem, thank you for everything, for always being there and for always understanding my mood swings. I love you always.

To my dearly loved guardian angel, Mama, you have a better view of my graduation watching it from the sky. :) I'm sorry because you can no longer wait for this day. Thank you for inspiring me. Your memories never failed to remind me of His purpose why I was brought to San Beda. I hope I made you proud. I love and miss you so much.

 

And to You Lord, my loving and loyal confidant, thank You for having Your way and allowing me to experience life. Thank You for still leading me to the same destination. That in all things, may You always be glorified!

 

"That in all things, God works for good to all those who love Him.

Those whom He has called according to His purpose…"

-Romans8:28-

My Guardian Angel’s 2nd Anniversary

My memory can still clearly remember the day that I've let you go. You've been missing a lot of happenings down here. We are missing you badly. But I know that your life is better off up there, than suffering here.

It's been two years since I've lost my mother. It still hurts. But I know everything that has happened was for our good. God has plans and I fully understand.  I think heaven was in dire need of angels that's why He took her. :D  I lost my mother 2 years ago, but I also gained my guardian angel. Happy 2nd year anniversary in heaven my dearest Guardian Angel. We're missing you down here, but  I know you're doing great up there. I love and miss you so much.

2

2 is a number.
maybe to remember
or just to forget
but never regret. :)

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Hush

It is neither jealousy nor bitterness. It’s just about feeling bad for yourself because you feel so little and not enough because he did not have the courage to stand for you and take the risk while he leaped for the other.

You’re hurting not because of “them” but because of the way you think towards yourself. You don’t have regrets with your decisions because you know that you did what’s best for you. It’s just that you’re hurting and only you could understand; only you could explain.

I feel for you.

One Last....

One last grade and it will be done....

*keeping my fingers crossed*

BUT all the more, keeping the faith stronger than ever.

THIS YEAR IS THE YEAR TO FULFILL MY DREAMS.

I know YOU'LL make them happen. I love You! :D

030910 PAPA read my BLOGS!!!

It was 8 in the morning when I picked up my phone because Ate was calling me. It was unusual. She doesn't usually call me unless she wants to borrow the hair iron again. Then from the other line, I heard:

 
 

Ate: Ke, may problema ka daw ba sabi ni Papa?

Keren: (talking to herself: bakit anong meron?)

Keren: dati meron, ngayon wala. Bakit?

Ate: Eh kasi ung blog mo nabasa ni Papa.

Keren: Huh? Paano? Waaah. (Papa doesn't even know how to open the computer!!!)

Ate: nung nasa bahay siya ng friend niya, sinearch niya ikaw tapos nabasa niya ung blog mo.

Keren: (Devastated.) Hahahaha.

 
 

Papa, if ever you're reading this, hello! :D

 
 

I should be studying now, but since our exam was moved to 2 instead of 1pm, I chose to write because I think I can't contain my thoughts to myself again. Studies show that people who blog are those who are lonely and are not that expressive. I'm not lonely. But I just don't want to talk to someone about random things that's why instead of telling them directly to a person, I just write them. But more than anything, I like to develop my writing skills (if ever I have one) because writing is my waterloo. (this blog will prove that I'm not a good writer. :P Pardon my grammatical errors and scattered thoughts. :D)

 
 

10 minutes left

 
 

I have ten minutes 'til I talk to my calculator and AP notebook again. Since I don't have so much time left, I'll tell my updates in bullet form. :P

• Finals week! I had two exams done, one today and more on the coming days. I studied at Mcdo (3am) (btw, the manager and the crew during the graveyard shift are really hospitable and friendly) this morning then went to mass (7am). :) I gave food to "Tatay" (it never failed to make me feel good and happy) then bought fruits for lunch. I need to learn how to pick the sweet ones. Btw, fruits are expensive! :P
  

   
   

• I didn't attend the youth feast last sun. I saw auntie Gigi again after 15 years then had lunch with the family. I should not have gone to las pinas but my sisters insisted. Instead of having 4hours as my time-off for studying tax, I had 6. I didn't finish studying tax 1. :( but that's ok. At least I had time with my family (the four of us -which is quite unusual nowadays).
  

   
   

• Music min practice last wed. I didn't plan to attend. But because of the frustrating quiz that I had in tax, I chose to attend and didn't answer everyone's text nor calls. I just want to deviate myself from everything. I cried so much. But one good thing happened, at least I learned how to attend mass everyday. (Oops. I forgot to wake up early last Saturday. I missed the morning mass that day. ):D
  

   
   

• OSEB Defense last Friday and I can say that we did great!!! Our spiels during the defense were well-delivered even though we had only almost 3 hours to practice. My officers are great and it was a team effort. I just hope for the best for JPIA. :) I know we did well (that's an understatement).
  

   
   

• Last regular school-Friday is "petiks day". I was in school at 7am for our rehearsal for our defense. As usual, I was the earliest and everyone was late. :P there was no tax2 for that day. And instead of having a lecture in Audit Prob, we just had our grades computed and the rest was "daldalan time". Ate nel, ketts, rjadz and I still have our hangover from the defense during that time. And the four of us passed the midterms in AP!!! :D I prayed for that and I'm blessed that God answered my prayers. :D
  

   
   

• I gained new friends last Friday- the feast manila new youth singers. :D
  

   
   

• I learned how to pray harder. Lord, You're simply awesome. You know why. I love You much! :D
  

   
   

 
 

Four exam days left then deliberation. I still have my facebook fasting 'til the final verdict. But I'll give way to blogging. at least through this, I won't be spending so much time lurking around the internet unlike when I open my FB. :P

 
 

5 minutes extension

 
 

Got to go…

 
 

-done: March 9, 2010

 
 

P.S. I think this will be a late post.

 
 

 
 

 
 

Arggh.

I hate one-sided freaks. Immature. When will you ever learn to listen? Arggh. :(