Point – less.

I am alone on the bed in this dark cold room with my sister and cousin asleep. I should have done my checklist two weeks ago. But up until now, I haven't started my list yet. Before I go any further, I just need to warn you that this entry is pointless. I am actually trying to put myself to sleep but I can't and I don't know why. I was busy with facebook. But after clicking the refresh button for several times and no new interesting update caught my attention, I opt to do this. I'm not a lurker, but I think I'm a stalker. :))

 

My instincts can sometimes kill me. I don't know if I was just too sensitive/observant or it's just my intuitions are really good. Whatever it is, it seems that I know something in this universe is happening that is yet for me to know.

 

I have a confession to make, I think I'm a frustrated writer and blogging is a way to stop my frustrations. I know I am not a good writer, but somehow deep inside, I know I want to write. It's just that I often run out of words and sense. Nevertheless, I still want to write. Hand in hand in writing was my want to read. This feeling has been going on for months now and lazy me often gets in the way. Someday I'll be able to read more books and write better. But for now, I guess you have to bear with my poor grammar and redundant sentences.

 

It finally came. I'm off to dreamland now. Ciao! :)

The Other Cheek.

If I was the old me, I should have walked away, turned back, and shut my world down.

 

But I guess I'm becoming more mature. I'm trying to face everything even with a little apprehension. Things may not be the way they used to be now, but I'm hoping that someday, they will be. Hopefully. But if not, then let it be, at least I did what I really wanted to do and conquered one of my greatest fears.

 

So I turned the other cheek, lowered the pride, and stayed.

Three Letters.

One of the best things that my profession could offer is the ability to write my occupation in three letters. (tamad.lol.)

Away.

"Things will never be the same again."

 

That was the most stupid move, but I guess it worked.

Quest for Camelot - Looking Through Your Eyes (English)

I've always loved this song. <3

Shut Down.

"So I leaned over and did what I figured you wanted me to do, hoping I was right, and then, as you were kissing me back, hoping it was enough to keep you."

Escape.

I am not me now. I am living my life not the way I planned it after passing my board exams. This is not me. This is not who I am supposed to be. But for now, I need a break. I need to take a rest. Take one step backward, look at the whole view, enjoy it for a while.

Someday soon I'll be me again. Yes, I'll be me.

Kundiman.

Bahala na, ayoko muna magsalita

Hayaan na muna natin ang hatol ng tadhana.

Love.

1 Corinthians 13

Love.

1 If I could speak in any language in heaven or on earth* but didn't love others, I would only be making meaningless noise like a loud gong or a clanging cymbal.

2 If I had the gift of prophecy, and if I knew all the mysteries of the future and knew everything about everything, but didn't love others, what good would I be? And if I had the gift of faith so that I could speak to a mountain and make it move, without love I would be no good to anybody.

3 If I gave everything I have to the poor and even sacrificed my body, I could boast about it;* but if I didn't love others, I would be of no value whatsoever.

4 Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud

5 or rude. Love does not demand its own way. Love is not irritable, and it keeps no record of when it has been wronged.

6 It is never glad about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out.

7 Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

8 Love will last forever, but prophecy and speaking in unknown languages* and special knowledge will all disappear.

9 Now we know only a little, and even the gift of prophecy reveals little!

10 But when the end comes, these special gifts will all disappear.

11 It's like this: When I was a child, I spoke and thought and reasoned as a child does. But when I grew up, I put away childish things.

12 Now we see things imperfectly as in a poor mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity.* All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God knows me now.

13 There are three things that will endure--faith, hope, and love--and the greatest of these is love.

Tanong.

Bakit ka nga ba nagtatanong pa sa mga bagay na alam mo naman ang sagot?

Hindi mo ba talaga alam? O naninigurado ka lang? O baka naman may gusto ko lang din malaman?